Boring day doing boring things :S

YES YES YES.

I'M FREAKIN BORED TODAY.

im a person who is soooo active ( or can i say hyper active?? whatever. ;D ) and i don't even feeling like wanting to sit quietly the whole day in front of my table, reading pages after pages of SPM books.
it's super tiring and damn boring!

i think everyone would agree with me for this??

hahahahaha :D

For usual times, i would just take up my phone and text to my friends who are having license asking them whether they are free to fetch me out so that i can leave off the table cluttered with notes and stationery.

but today i didn't.

despite of texting, my Two Two ( a pig rabbit ) somehow winked to me.
and this was why...........

i think i have gone out of my mind, so i would just do such a bai chi thing.

LOLLLLL. 

hahahaha! btw, Two Two is cute! ^^

Lil Gift of Heaven. ^^

yeah yeah, he's my lil SON! hahahaha!

oopss, sorry Ryan's actual mummy. but he's just too cute!

^^

he's actually my nephew within a month's old.

thanks his mummy for bringing him to this world.

and my friends said that he's like a baby model searched from internet!

this is Ryan's leng lui mummy! 

awwww~~ the scene is just so...... hahahaha! ^^

this is Ryan's father! 24 孝老爸~! xD

baby baby baby oh, my baby baby baby oh~~

i just simply love babies!

few months later after they are born, they learn to smile.

few months later again, they learn to laugh.

what their life are simply about ?? 

nothing except eatttt and sleeeeep!

 how innocent and naive they are.

they cry when they need milk, 

they cry when they need sleep, 

they too cry when they need to...*ngk ngk~~ xD

YET they too learn to smile when they are happy.

babies are so straightforward and don't fear to show out their emotions.

how about the other human beings in this world?

... =)

They live in a world of peace and people to them are of good people.

who gives them milk, then who will be the goooood man. 

and they would surely let u hug hug and.. TAKE PHOTOS! 

hahahahah! 

they are just like free models who are just naturally cute and naive!

HE EVEN KNOWS TO DANCE! AMAZING! ^^

SOOOOOOO ENVY OF BABIES! 

i was once a baby too, but sad to say, i had the one and the ONLY ONE of the baby photo in my photo album. =(

perhaps i was just that ugly until my parents didn't want to get me some photos??

hahahahaha.

had u ever seen a baby with her eyesbrows one side BROWN and the other side ORANGE in colour ??

had u even seen a baby with the hair COLOURFUL !?

had you ever seen a baby with half of her face in different colours !?

HAD YOU.. HAD YOU !?

..

...

....

YES. THAT'S ME.

hahahahaha.

unbelievable right?!  im now so normal enough.

FORTUNATELY～～

*FIU~~ ^^

Ying Be'loved xoxo <3

我们都傻

有些事情，不懂好过懂...
有些东西，不看好过看...
做人有时候就是要有点笨，装点傻，日子才会过得快乐。

试图隐藏的情绪，总是那么难受。
虽然向自己最最最最最最信任的朋友诉说出来，但是问题还是存在。
我需要靠自己去克服、去面对、去解决它。
但是我所想到的解决方法，我觉得都不是最好的。
一来，伤感情。
二来，伤自己。
三来，伤身 - 因为无法入眠，吃不饱，睡不好。

但是我还能怎么做？
结果到了最后，我还是选择了隐藏。
我该说自己笨还是傻？

我不想真的变笨啦！装罢了嘛 ><

或许人总是遇到自己最矛盾的时候。
说又不是，不说也不是。
那种感觉，真想撞墙晕倒 一了百了！

人生得一知己，死而无憾。
今天 我有了一个，但是为什么偏偏不满足？

杀了我吧。LOLLL...

最近 荷尔蒙失调 频频EMO 搞什么 =.=

Sometimes, it's good to be stupid :)

i shouldn't online,seriously.
HAHAHAHA.
i saw things that i didn't like, i saw things that i cared but i have to act like nothing is going weird.
im going to be a goooood actress one day, if i can make it.
i really hope that i can be, just for this matter.
then you will be happy, i will be...... anything ;)

these days, i cannot sleep well every night.
i try to find something to distract myself from that matter, and yet each time it comes to night time....
everything returns to zero, again.
what actually annoyed me? what actually makes me feel like im going berserk? what actually i care..in my deep heart???

finally, i got the answer last night.
credits to my bendan friend for consoling me until late in midnight, 3am.
and i nearly let him be scolded by his dad because of using house phone to listen to my sadness.
hahahahhaa.
i really do appreciate your every words that get me to a more relax state. thanks. thanks. thanks...

i don't know whether i can make it or not, changing myself or what.
but i would just try very hard to do it, no matter how much effort i got to do.
i just can't afford to feel depressed anymore on those sucks matter.
i don't deserve all those sadness, right? heeee.

maybe i can laugh, i can smile all the time.
but whether it is from my true heart, i don't know.
from now on, im just willing not to know everything, just look into the person's eye and tell that person, i really don't want to care anymore, i just want us to be happy ever after.
and.. i will try my best to release myself from that stupid circle.
im just getting myself round and round over the same place. maybe it's really enough.

today, i found a place that i can totally forget about everything and after that, i regain my self-confidence, without those things stuffed in my mind.
that is my school's music room, for choir practice. hahahaha.
i found too much satisfaction when i have successfully taught a person to sing out the song correctly.
i found that i meant to be appreciated, i meant to be happy, i meant to have my own world.
why must i trap myself inside that small little circle?
i should step out from there and get a new lease of life.
i worth it. I WORTH IT! 

but to get those stuff away from mind, i do really need some time to mend myself.
im not a supergirl that can delete everything from my mind in few hours' time.
but i will try hard to mend it as fast as i possibly could, or else i will really go insane one day.
hahahahaha.

no more tears, no more sadness, i deserve to have a good sleep and happy life! 


sometimes, it's good to be a stupid. :)

处女座的脆弱

处女座的人，总是那么容易受伤，但是却总是让人看不见。

他们总是在人前嬉皮笑脸，努力用微笑面对大家。

深夜的时候，却会独自躲在房里的一角，默默哭泣。

谁又真的晓得他们心中承受着的那沉重的痛？

不是他们爱爱耍酷，不愿与人分享，而是...

他们往往找不到一个可靠的肩膀让他们安心的靠着，把心里的痛楚都说出来。

脆弱的他们，总是奢望得到别人的保护，别人的关心、关爱。

因为他们最缺乏的，就是那所谓的安全感。

对别人而言，处女座的人总是那么活泼开朗，但是...

有没有人可曾真正去了解过他们的内心深处？

我只能说，懂得处女座的人，真的没有几个。

而没有多少人可以看透了他们心中的恐惧。

人家都说，处女座的人要求甚高，什么事都要做得最完美。

对人、事、物，都一样。

事事都要100分，绝不容许任何瑕疵。

我该说这是好事，还是坏事？

见仁见智吧 =)

可是，有时候因为自己的要求过高，一旦达不到自己想要的，他们就会作茧自缚，责备自己，一个人承受那不必要的压力，却不想让人看出来。

是因为好胜，还是好强？

没人懂，就连他们自己也不了解自己。

躲藏，哭泣 - 这就是他们最常做的事。

他们会想办法解决自己的问题，但是却不会立刻实行。

他们的第一个反应，通常都只是无助地掉泪。

或许过了许久，才会慢慢释放自己。

想太多，就是处女座的本色。

有时候我在想，处女座的人岂不是容易患上忧郁症??

那我就真的太危险了。呵呵。

他们重感情，无论是友情还是爱情，他们总是小心翼翼地保护着。

一旦在乎了，他们就会开始对对方有要求，还要他们务必做到。

嘴巴有时候很毒，但是实际上他们只是用了不一样的方式关心身边的人。

然而这却总是造成了种种误会。

偏偏他们又不爱为自己的行为解释，任由别人误解自己。

跟处女座做朋友，若你不够了解他们，那你就永远无法与他们成为知己，走进他们的心。

他们就是那么傻，那么脆弱，那么需要安全感，那么需要... 一个让自己真正释放自己的胸膛。

Birth-Day! :D

well , i just can't stop myself from thinking nonsense.
i just can't stop my mind from keeping on running.
and all the pictures in it are........ the thing that i don't want to mention for quite some time.
yet , u will never know it. hahahaha. blek~~

ok. back to my main topic.
30/8 is my birthday! and this day in 2011 was.. quite boring.. yet.. it came to happiness at night. ^^
firstly, i was in Genting Highlands in the afternoon.
but i found nothing to be happy, because i was shopping alone in First World.
Yorrrr, i thought it would be fun. but after walking some while and i found that the place was just so small only.
hahahaha. i went into almost every shop! and i got nothing out from those places.
HAHAHAHA, except my cousin's bro present and Famous Amos for my siao kia friends! ^^
nothing for myself..... haih. what a.. PITY.

anything lak ahduii :D

then then i found out that i haven't had my meal and my stomach started to grumble.
and this was the most hatred part.
I LINED UP FOR McD FOR 45MINS JUST TO GET A MCDELUXE SET !?
ohhh that time i gonna shout out WHAT THE F*** !!
AND....
A STUPID GINA BEHIND ME REALLY SO ... !! ARGHH !
it doesn't matter how he looks like, the most important part is..

he kept touching me! purposely or what ?? don't ask me.
ewwww ~ just enough..! i just blared at him and he hid behind his mum.

LOLLLL !

anyway, just end that part.

and next , i was on the way home, sitting in the car for 6-7 hours. reached here around 11.30pm !
greatttt, my birthday was going to over.
and my friend suddenly gave me a call and told me he cannot make it to fetch me out for my greatttt birthday supper.

HOW DISAPPOINTED AM I!

but then he called me again and suddenly told me he can out.
heh ? what's going on ?
hek hek hek~ and this made me suspect something.
and yes, it happened! hahahaha! my siao kia gang was outside of my house! ^^
it didn't really match what i'd imagined, but it's goood enough!
because those siao kia normally cannot out late at night.
and that day we mam mam in Rock Cafe until 2am. wao! what a first time! hahahaha.

YA LAK, YOU GUYS MADE ME ABITTT SURPRISED LO~~ xoxo ^^

and here are all my presents !

from beloved doraemon, wei han & my beloved mon mon, sze chia. ^^

it's a cute tabung. hahaha.

Armani Exchange Sunglasses from my beloved family! ^^

from my family too! - younger bro, huixiong. ^^

waaaa, this ar..my 'beloved' friend lo, zhe han. hahahaha!

p/s : ini DIY one nor! the only one :D

from siao kia friends! they gave me a house built by themselves within 4 days!

awwwww.. touched~~

they all still thought i will HIAM tim, horr??? :D

mmmmuacks! 

and this are the small parts in the house!  

ACTUALLY LEH.. THIS IS VALENTINE'S PRESENT.

perhaps this is a present that came late. hahahha! 

hohoho! and my lui lui! yeaii! it's name is lui lui. ^^

actually it is just a pig pig ju. hahahah! love it!

- from nai ba, kang wei qian :D

and that angry bird bottle, from my beloved didu kia, jia min :D

THANK YOU MY BELOVED ONES! 

mmmmmmmmmmuacks! hug hug* ^^

                                             

Y: recalling it back, my holidays are actually enjoyable enough. shouldn't yearn for more.^^