JPJ test ! ;D

DAMN! i'm so exciteddddd now!
hahahahah!

today's outlook. ;)

i've passed my car test! and im a REAL PEMANDU now, no more illegal driving. XD
hahahaha! feel happy for me! because i will go and fetch u soon!!! ^^

the night before, i'd no idea why on earth i couldn't fall asleep!
nervous? or thinking what to do after getting license !? xD
or.... SPM ?? ><

i think i was thinking all nonsense.
i should have had a good sleep so that i would be more energetic today LOL.
lying on the bed, i found myself tossing about on the bed, feeling so bad.
because i was so tired, still i couldn't fall asleep.
i nearly took up my phone and started calling peopleSSS to kacau them up.
but at last i didn't.
feel so fortunate??  山水有相逢 xD

1 hour, 2hours, 3 hours.............
and then when i opened my eyes, it was already 6am.
GOD, let me sleep for more a while pleaseeee.
but i had to get up to prepare as my agent would reach my house at 6.40!
dearrrr, how could i drive later! my eyes..
and today was my bigggg day.... JPJ day !!!!

i started getting more nervous and nervous..
and i was fortunate to know 3 sweet girls there.^^
they were even more nervous than me!
so funny lak we all. hahaha.

reaching at 7am. we started practising.
BUKIT........ PARKING.......... TIGA PENJURU..........

JPJ test started after waiting there for an hour.
i tried to listen to musics to sooth away my stress.
and IT WORKS! ^^
but when the Bukit test started, still, my heart could be heard pounding loudly and rapidly. TT
i've got friends who failed in this, and i was so afraid.
i was the 10th. seeing the 1st person kept on 'rolling down' from the slopes.........

this is every driver's nightmare? hahahah!

AMITOFO, ANG KONG BO BI! 

seriously i said that! hahahaha!
reaching my turn............
sitting into the car, i started mumbling to myself.......
"don't get nervous.....just like how i practise just now....check seat....safety belt....go~~"
going up to the slope, going to reach the tiang.....

STOP!

oh damn it! the brake! so much different with the previous car i drove. once i stepped on it, it's like emergency brake! =.=
ah!! my tyre only got into the yellow lines for about 80% i think.
I THOUGHT I WOULD FAIL!!!!

but actually your tyre got into it for 75% then it's ok.
yorrrrrrr.. shy......
when the tester asked me to raise my hand, i said.......

"tyre tak masuk lagi......(my face KIU~) "
"memang sudah masuk dah..angkat tangan...."

ar??? like this also can?
hahahaha! and i passed that part! oh yes yes yes!! ^^
parking and tiga penjuru were surely not much problems ad.
yeaii, end this part. feeling so relieved after that because the only thing i was afraid of was that stupid slope.
LOL xD

JALAN RAYA.
people said women testers are always more strict and fierce.
and YES, THEY ARE.
i met a woman who purposely don't smile and give me THAT kind of face.
ish. she made me forget to test my wiper!!

"kenapa tak test wiper?"
"ah.....(damn it)..sorry..."
"tak pa, i pangkah saja...."
"..."
(we need 16/20 marks to pass.now here comes the 1st pangkah. arghh.)

fine!! pangkah me! so fierce for what.
i'm just a 17 year-old girl. PA PA you know. TT
but fortunately she had nothing to scold me on the road. hahahaha!
and i passed. OH YESSSSSS!!!!! ^^

the rest is history.
now i'm going to have my own sweeeeeeeeet sleep.
i think i can sleep already?? hahahah!
anxiously waiting for my PPPPPP. hahahaha.^^


byebye people! ;)

Now onwards, I shut up.

i saw my own shadow on her.

why on earth will all these sucky things influencing everyone around me??

keeping a relationship warm for YEARSSSS. 

is that really sooooo hard?????

perhaps.

i've been thinking of this for monthSSSS.

problems after problems arised from this damn year of 2011.

cold wars, keeping emotions to ourselves.....

there shouldn't be any hesitation to tell the truth to friends, isn't it ??

or maybe that's only my own opinion.

because i always tell everything out, no matter your good or your bad.

maybe sometimes it's really hurtful, still.. this is just because I CARE.

i never simply say someone doing wrong for certain thing.

because i don't care.

the same thing i do, u can do it to me too.

we just have to accept all those critics to make ourselves better, don't you think so??

BUT..

perhaps i'm really a suckie stupid people, who always use the wrong method to solve problems?

i thought i can but actually i always can't.

sorry if i make things turn out to be even more complicated or mess up everything.

maybe i should really keep my mouth shut and just be totally indifferent to things than happen around me.

then the world of us will be full of PEACE...???

with the problems hanging in the air, without taking even a mere attention on the particular incident??

I GUESS, YES.

because i'm just an idiot who will never be able to solve that thing.

i thought i'm so clever enough.

over-confident???

alright, end.

TIME FLIES, PEOPLE CHANGES, FEELING CHANGES, CARES ARE SUBSEQUENTLY BEING KEPT IN OUR OWN HEART.

This is the fact, AGAIN?? 

why on earth are there having so much facts??

can't we change it? can't we just ignore those facts and create a new fact???

RUBBISH!

If we live to follow those facts, it's totally meaningless!

what am i angry at?? why am i feeling so hurt?? why am i being so 'chicken-grandmother' ??

there's a guy telling me before, girls always have their own friends' best interest in their hearts.

maybe this is soooo true.

because of that, we care too much. 

because of that, we can easily feel hurt.

because of that, we've no more beliefs in people.

because of that, jokes have become something too much between us.

time always goes on, but people seem to remain in the very first step, not willing to step forward to look at a wider scope.

i admit, i'm the one too.

but time is also a good healer, isn't it?

things that go wrong, i've already accepted all of them, and each time i walk down my memory lane, i found myself to have earned alot.

till today, i'm not that that weak anymore.

Perhaps, everyone has their own way to look over certain matter.

some people choose to hide, some people choose to solve, but there are a few smart people who choose to be happy all the time.

REVEALing, is always the best way for me. 

no matter what consequences i would face, i would choose to reveal.

at least... i can end that part after telling out.

i won't be suffering from all those shitty stuff, i can move on.

life is like a brief candle, one snuff, and it's out.

look, there are so many disasters happening all around the world of late.

Flooding Thai is the best example.

4000++ people staying in Thai airport had to be moved to other safer places.

they were struggling so hard to stay alive, moving here and there, even though they lost their homes and belongings.

we are that lucky because we are not the victims.

we can still sleep soundly in our very own sweet home.

we can eat to the fill, we can go for school, we can hang out with friends.

don't we feel grateful enough?? 

if yes, why don't we just face things optimistically and appreciate every second we live in this very own world with happiness??

although we will face the ups and downs in life, but look back at these victims.

feel yourself to be the fortunate people, smile.. life goes on. ;)

Random feelings ;)

Yor. landing in a mood of something like... PMS ??

wtf.

why on earth that girls have to suffer from this but boys don't?

UNFAIR!!

yea, this recently i've really learnt alot.

from the trip to KL, until coming back from there.

I strongly feel that.. 1 Malaysia is a dream, a target that is not THAT easy to achieve.

but anyway.. it somehow or rather had ended.

thanks to the people that were being by my side, listening to my heart at the very moment when i needed that most.

i can't imagine if she wasn't there for that moment.

i think i would really suffer from short breath??

heee, she'd consoled me for some time and successfully calmed my weak heart down.

i really love her sooo much.

mmmmuacks! ^^

and surely there's another person who just accompanied me all along thru the phone. ;)

74260744~

and wanted me to continue until everything was finished.

because i literally gave up that particular event.

thanks~~ ;))

although we didn't successfully enter the final, but the experience we got was more than enough.

chances are always there as long as we try hard again for the next year.

hee., though i might not be there already. because i will be already GRADUATED!

and i will be walking into another different part of my life.

anxious yet, afraid.

special feelings of facing my future. :D

I LOST MY STUDY MOOD OF LATE.

I GONNA BANG MY HEAD INTO THE WALL ALREADY.

SPM IS GETTING NEARER AND NEARER.

trying harddddd to regain that back.

and stop thinking nonsense lak aiyor.

Ying Be'loved! don't forget what's your real target! 

im this happy when i was small. 

nothing goes wrong in that world. ^^ 

Choir People, XOXO! ^^

YES. they are my currently BFFsss. they are all my choir girlfriends! ^^
we've been together for months already and also gone for a few competitions together!
we've also gone thru a lot of practices of course!
and everytime we like to make NOISESSS until ah sir tried so hard to blow his PIT PIT just to keep us quiet.
BUT....

sad to say, sir.. you fail to do it as well.
hahahahah!

we've gone thru the happiness and sadness together in these few months....
we ate Chai Kuey provided by ChaiKuey Wei.. ( HAHAHA! )
we won in the competition and shouted like siao poSS as well.. xD
we also losed in the competition WHICH WE'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO.
***p/s: we losed,not because we are bad, it's just because of those freakin stupid HONOURABLE JUDGES who disqualified us without investigating the truth!!

by the way, our good guy sir had already sent in the complaint letter.
and we're now waiting for the great newsss.....

after that incident, i found that we're getting even more cooperate and our relationship got closer too!
we shouted at the top of our voice when we're blamed by those STUPIDSS.
ermmm.... rude words??
hahahaha!
it didn't matter for that moment either.
we just wanna reveal everything inside our heart.
our feelings of hurt! DAMN IT.

but it's alright now!
THIS MONDAY WE'RE GOING TO FIGHT WITH THE WHOLE MALAYSIA'S CHOIR GROUPS FROM EACH STATE!

NATIONAL LEVEL PATRIOTIC SONGS COMPETITION!

ROCKS THAT! ^^

it must be soooo awesome. xD
just enjoy it! take it as a trip..to watch the PERFORMANCE performed by 16 groups in the whole m'sia.
SOUNDS GREAT RIGHT!? ^^

"girls, don't give up so easily before we fight.
no matter how will the results be, we are always the best choir group!"
*copyright reserved by Sir Chan Kok Peng. :P

hahaha. i love you all! keep in touch always ya!

Ying Be'loved xoxo <3

我看见了 她的眼泪

原谅我没能够多注意你的空间
原谅我不够为你着想
原谅我从来没站在你的那一方去想想你的感受
原谅我一直不够了解你
原谅我在你最不开心时没能陪着你
我说我们是好朋友
但是我这个朋友 似乎根本没做好自己的责任...

2933, 404327808 <3

Mood status : LOWWWW.

mood : low.
smile : less.
laugh : no.
thoughts : SHITTY!
study : try to concentrate. -,-
sleep : not really well.

Recently, i've been in this condition.
thinking nonsense again and again.
i'm really a typical Virgo girl.
my goodness~
what the hell is running in my fckin mind.
i can just think of anything NEGATIVE once i'm alone/quiet/listening to songs ETC ETC.

HECK. im seriously annoyed by a lot of stuff.
where has my happiness gone to?
seriously, i need a hug, just a big yet warm hug.
i need a shoulder, it doesn't have to be broad, but let me feel safe.
i need a person, who can be able to accompany quietly until all my tears dried and i fall asleep.


and this is only given by my lover, GIGI.
hehehe. *GIGI is my garfield lol.

hoping to own a poodle! it's just sooo cute,and it must surely be a goooood listener. ^^

fckin days, fckin minds!!!!!

Unique human beings, unique us. ;)

YES. No matter how, life still goes on.
Having cared for something or someone too much is not really a great idea.
try to escape from that circle and look at the big big world.

WOW. IT'S SOOOO NICE~~~

hahahaha. what am i talking about ? LOLLL.
anyway, anything.
at least i'm now so relieved and happy to see that everything turns normal again.
maybe not now, but it's coming sooner.

APPRECIATION. i learnt it. ^^

Human beings are just something so unique.
Although we are being the same creature, but we can never ever understand a people so well until you could see through what's running in his or her mind.
So at least what you can do is just to treat people around you sincerely with true hearts.

STOP CHEATING AND BEHAVING LIKE YOU'RE SO PRETTY CLEVER INTERFERING WITH SOMETHING YOU SHOULDN'T.

But unfortunately, the world is full of bad hats, full of people with jealousy, hatred, negative minded etc etc.
aiyor, im utterly speechless each time saying about this. *though i've said quite alot lol.
why on earth must those people hating each other, cracking their heads just to get an idea to land the others in hot soup ?????
what's the benefit would they get?
just a grin over their own faces??? *sigh.

well, still the same, ignorance is always bliss.
since i can't change any little things of those BRAINLESS human beings, and i'll promise myself just not to be like how they are. ^^

Just a short update. going to dump into my bookhills.
SPM , COME COME. AND FASTER GO GO. hahahaha!

Yes, i love them. :)

Ying Be'loved is not that weak as well ;)

一堆土到爆的废话.

不懂吃错什么药，突然 si pek 感触。 

中学生涯咋看之下就只剩下那区区的两个月。
回想过去，说精彩不算太精彩，说平淡也不能说是太平淡。
我只能说，我把中学生活过得蛮充实的。

人家都说，女校是一个很奇怪的地方。
"你都不闷吗!? 没男生的也! "
奇怪，难道没了男生，我们这些女生生存不下去？
我们还是一样那么疯，那么三八，那么开心！

虽然，偶尔...就是会这样... 

有时有这样....

但是最常做的.........

XD 

照片让回忆停留在那一瞬间，那最美好的时刻。
刚刚看会以往的照片，突然感触良多，心中有着错中复杂的感觉，很不是滋味。

中学生涯里，我留下很多美好的回忆，但是...
生活总不会一帆风顺，朋友们都经过一次又一次的争吵，感情增进了一步步。
直到今天这种关系，其实...要维系，真的不是一件那么容易的事。



听着 the truth that you leave BY yiruma...
它让我心中更添不少遗憾的滋味。
我曾经因为讲话不经大脑伤害过自己身边的朋友，曾经因为太在意身边的人对我所说的那么一句话伤心了一整天...
因为我们都不善于表达，我们都太在乎对方。
我们都曾经伤害过彼此，冷战过无数次，但是...我们都走到了今天不是吗？

;)

已升上中五的我们，知道大家就将要各走各的。
我们就因为这样多了一个很无厘头的话题。

“以后的我们见到面，还会像现在一样，那么融洽？”
“或许我们不认识对方了吧？”
“或许看到也只剩下一声 HI 和一声 BYE ？”
“可能根本从ah bun 所说的疯狂五连体 剩下4个？3个？还是2个？”
”那第一个不见的肯定是我！”


说完，我们都带着笑脸把话题带过。

老实说，其实...我心中真的有些恐惧和担心。
明明是很要好的朋友，竟然要变成最熟悉的陌生人？
屁！

“ 赛，可能我们十年后带着各自的男朋友回来聚会了呢？”

哈哈哈哈，真的很难想象那时候的我们，究竟变成什么样子了。
或许，我们的 alin 已经有了孩子呢！xD

真希望这个能够实现。
如果这场聚会会发生，那该有多好~~
我会期待。

今天上华文课时，我们都读到了一篇有关朋友的篇章。
说实在，那真的有点土。
什么为朋友赴汤蹈火，出生入死....=.=
但是有些句子，有些话... 或多或少真触动了我内心深处。

的确，到了如今，我才知道....
其实，我并没有很了解他们每一个人。
我有努力过吗？或许没有吧。
我付出过什么？也许诚如我们所说的，生日那天，大家都会狠狠地付出钱包里的那些存了好久的储蓄！

哈哈哈，有够惨的我们。

不过，其实我都感受到大家有多努力维系我们之间的感情。
虽然大家不说出口，其实我们还是相亲相爱的啦～～^^

嘻嘻。
我们的沟通方式，莫过于....

一天，我脸黑坐在自己的位子上。
大家围在一起讨论....
“ 喂喂，他今天做么？”
耸耸肩。
“你去问他看。”
“不要，要死你自己死，杀气那么重。”
....结果，大家继续做功课。

对吧？
哈哈哈哈。

没说出口的关心，这就是我们耍的那一套。
不错哦？
每次生气的那个就会觉得....
"他妈的，慰问一下我会死啊！“

实际上，当别人靠近她开口问时......

翻他一个白眼，继续生闷气。

看啦，这就是我们。
可不是只有我！你们也有份！:D

一起经历的可不是造假的！
谁对谁错，其实根本都不重要了。
哭也哭过了，不开心的都过了。
曾经让你们难受，对不起。
曾经那么让你们不爽，对不起。
曾经说过一些赛话让你觉得我很赛，对不起。
我其实知道我并不是一个很好的朋友，我只能说对不起。

  疯狂五连体+1 的 siao po 们，哇矮丽！

（知道你们作呕，还在骂我假啦。ok lur, 不接受我的爱意，我只好暗恋你们了～～ :D )


废话到这里，谢谢收看。