i saw my own shadow on her.
why on earth will all these sucky things influencing everyone around me??
keeping a relationship warm for YEARSSSS.
is that really sooooo hard?????
perhaps.
i've been thinking of this for monthSSSS.
problems after problems arised from this damn year of 2011.
cold wars, keeping emotions to ourselves.....
there shouldn't be any hesitation to tell the truth to friends, isn't it ??
or maybe that's only my own opinion.
because i always tell everything out, no matter your good or your bad.
maybe sometimes it's really hurtful, still.. this is just because I CARE.
i never simply say someone doing wrong for certain thing.
because i don't care.
the same thing i do, u can do it to me too.
we just have to accept all those critics to make ourselves better, don't you think so??
BUT..
perhaps i'm really a suckie stupid people, who always use the wrong method to solve problems?
i thought i can but actually i always can't.
sorry if i make things turn out to be even more complicated or mess up everything.
maybe i should really keep my mouth shut and just be totally indifferent to things than happen around me.
then the world of us will be full of PEACE...???
with the problems hanging in the air, without taking even a mere attention on the particular incident??
I GUESS, YES.
because i'm just an idiot who will never be able to solve that thing.
i thought i'm so clever enough.
over-confident???
alright, end.
TIME FLIES, PEOPLE CHANGES, FEELING CHANGES, CARES ARE SUBSEQUENTLY BEING KEPT IN OUR OWN HEART.
This is the fact, AGAIN??
why on earth are there having so much facts??
can't we change it? can't we just ignore those facts and create a new fact???
RUBBISH!
If we live to follow those facts, it's totally meaningless!
what am i angry at?? why am i feeling so hurt?? why am i being so 'chicken-grandmother' ??
there's a guy telling me before, girls always have their own friends' best interest in their hearts.
maybe this is soooo true.
because of that, we care too much.
because of that, we can easily feel hurt.
because of that, we've no more beliefs in people.
because of that, jokes have become something too much between us.
time always goes on, but people seem to remain in the very first step, not willing to step forward to look at a wider scope.
i admit, i'm the one too.
but time is also a good healer, isn't it?
things that go wrong, i've already accepted all of them, and each time i walk down my memory lane, i found myself to have earned alot.
till today, i'm not that that weak anymore.
Perhaps, everyone has their own way to look over certain matter.
some people choose to hide, some people choose to solve, but there are a few smart people who choose to be happy all the time.
REVEALing, is always the best way for me.
no matter what consequences i would face, i would choose to reveal.
at least... i can end that part after telling out.
i won't be suffering from all those shitty stuff, i can move on.
life is like a brief candle, one snuff, and it's out.
look, there are so many disasters happening all around the world of late.
Flooding Thai is the best example.
4000++ people staying in Thai airport had to be moved to other safer places.
they were struggling so hard to stay alive, moving here and there, even though they lost their homes and belongings.
we are that lucky because we are not the victims.
we can still sleep soundly in our very own sweet home.
we can eat to the fill, we can go for school, we can hang out with friends.
don't we feel grateful enough??
if yes, why don't we just face things optimistically and appreciate every second we live in this very own world with happiness??
although we will face the ups and downs in life, but look back at these victims.
feel yourself to be the fortunate people, smile.. life goes on. ;)
